Thursday, November 29, 2012

Let's See Where This Goes-

It has been prescribed that for every breakup of a relationship, you need double that amount of time to heal.

Three months of sixteen and I keep telling people, "yea, I just got off of tour". 

My heart aches not being onstage in a show I love everyday.  Yes, I am working on other projects.  Yes, I keep in contact with most all the Idiots.  Yes, I like having DVR. 

Thank goodness, I didn't take a day for granted while touring the country.  Carpe fucking diem'ed. 

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This week.  I'm working on three major projects for me.  And if you couldn't already tell, I'm sleepless and trying to lull myself to sleep with Red Label. 


I AM STRESSED BEYOND BELIEF.

And I'm smiling.  Because, I love the theater.  And I love the theater with theater professionals with an attitude of "can do".  Because at the end of the day- well, what else is more rewarding?

I've been recently feeling as if I needed something else.  Something that wasn't so volatile as being an artist for a living.  I wanted more control.  I wanted more money.  I wanted more stability.

NEWS FLASH:  Stability doesn't exist, y'all!!!

But love does.  If you do what you love and treat others with respect while you're doing it-  you only attract more of what you project. 

Take what you want from this.  It's full of generalizations.  But generally what I'm saying is- everything is worth it.  And when it drives you to tears, you can thank God that something still can. 



1 comment:

  1. Months before the tour ended, I put a countdown on my phone to that last performance. It's still there. Currently at 146 days. I can't bring myself to take it down.
    Truth be known, it's been a mourning process for me. Some days are easy. Some days not so much.
    The hardest part is knowning that there's not a forseeable time in the future that I'm planning on seeing an Idiot. :/
    That being said, I know you are amazing and awesome and wonderful and full of life a joy are are going to bring those same attributes to anything you work on.
    Lots of love <3
    Cara

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